I am, we are.

I am standing here In the dark. It is raining and the ground feebly trembles beneath me as a gentle storm appears to brew. The rain catches the edges of my hair, dampening it and darkening the tips in colour. My toes are slowly numbing and I wiggle them in anticipation of Β being amongst the…

10 mantras to help you on your journey

I’ve made it my life long quest to understand what it is to be happy and content. This may sound incredibly simplistic to some, but to other individuals who have experienced suffering, pain, tortuous thoughts or behaviours and a general disequilibrium of self, happiness being their only goal, is a tough one. I also understand…

The disease of settlement

It is incredibly powerful. It carefully infiltrates every cell in your body and your mind. When you finally realise and acknowledge its presence, it spreads even quicker. Now you search those dense forests far and wide for the antidote – anything to cure this demobilising disease. This demobilising disease of settlement. The same disease that…

The most surreal day of my life to date (part 2)

Dad and decided to put our emotions to the side, silently reminding ourselves why we were here in the first place. We walked to the entrance of the camp, attempting to maintain an aspect of confidence in order to not appear too vulnerable. The best way that my mind was able to draw a parallel…

The most surreal day of my life to date (part 1)

It’s quite a strange feeling knowing that the last time you embarked on this journey, the car was packed to the ceiling with belongings, holiday luggage and random antiques that your mother had acquired from the last brocante (she’s extremely talented in bringing dying pieces of furniture back to life, yet we still complain about…

Amsterdam livin’

When you relocate to another country, your mind is forced to simultaneously process such a raw influx of information, that it is only natural to feel overwhelmed. I remember within my first month at my new apartment in Amsterdam (that still lacks internet, leading it to be incredibly lonely at times), my determination completely subsided…

Skidding towards my destiny

A month has passed since I carelessly packed up my entire life and jumped on a flight to The Netherlands (I was filled to the brim with sedatives, regardless of the flight duration of course). My only regret at this point,Β is that I wish I had taken a little longer to pack my suitcase –…

Holland – day oneΒ 

As the title of this blog post reveals, today was my first day in Holland. Don’t get me wrong, I understand that a huge amount cannot typically occur in one day whilst living in a new country, however due to my occasional impatient/anxious traits, I’ve wanted to get the ball rolling pretty hastily. I think…

Moving to Holland – The preparation beginsΒ 

In five days, I move to Holland.  A couple of months ago,I visited my aunt in Holland. This was the second time that I had visited the country as a whole and the first time I had visited this particular area – The Hague. After this fleeting trip, I made the decision to move out…

Respire

I’ve started to feel suffocated by my own thoughts in recent times, so I made the decision to travel back down south to stay with my sister for a while, to escape and catch up with my girlfriends. The weather has been beautiful, which does wonders for my mental state. When I’m outside, I feel…

Pay it forward

Recently, internally I haven’t felt as happy and fulfilled as I usually do and I’m finding it difficult to experience this phase because it reminds me of a time when I didn’t know what happiness was. I feel that I have had an extended period of happiness that has now ended, so I’m trying to…

New beginnings

It’s never ceases to amaze me how one event can change the direction of one’s entire life. Since I have become single, I often remind myself – ‘my life can go in any direction’. For some people this uncertainty is a threat to their happiness, whilst for me, it provides myself with a thirst for…